Tuesday, April 30, 2013

P before p

It has been a minute since I posted last. I have been steadily working my recovery. Many times in the groups I can "see" people in various ways. Many times I see leaders, politicians, authors etc..

I see people not for their common ground they share with me but with their uncommon ground masked by their disease of alcoholism. It is unfortunate that I see people in this manner. I see what they could have become were it not for their personalities becoming twisted and agree to fight with King Alcohol.

I am one of them. I am a part of this fellowship that is to place principles before personality. Even though my obsession to drink has been lifted I continue to work on my emotional and psychological sobriety. It helps me right now to hear from those with a lot of days. I continue to get the wisdom engulfed by the message. I continue to not drink. I continue to attend meetings. I continue to talk with my sponsor and other alcoholics. I continue to attend book studies and work through steps. And things just keep getting better. I sometimes come across people who are basically miserable in sobriety, but I continue to give them my standard nod and small smile without validating or reacting to them. I continue to give and take from experiences, strengths and hope. I have no grey nor pink vision but rather iridescence and I am 1/3rd into a years worth of experience. Hopefully, with my Higher Power driving I will be able to make it through this Grand Prix.


  1. Principles   
  2. Personalities 

Saturday, April 13, 2013

90 days and more than 90 meetings




Yesterday I was able to claim 90 days but am waiting for my home group to take my chip. My home group is on Thursday so I will have to wait. However, my sponsor told me congratulations. I have more meetings than I have days sober at this point. I will continue to go to as many meetings as possible, but will most likely not be so diligent about tracking them at least until my classes kick in. I was keeping track of my meetings on rehab cards from when I went through it. I still go to aftercare once a week. I learned a lot out of rehab and was given a different perspective. Although I had a relapse in rehab I am glad I went through the program. It was an experience that I will never forget and am ever grateful for.

I feel the same way about the fellowship. I continue to take in others' stories and learn from them. I listen and take in everything from people who only have a few days to decades of sobriety. Admittedly it was a struggle at first. Actually it has been a struggle for me for the last few years. Yet I am able to reflect, report and rely on faith in my higher power that continues to be educational. 

I read in the paper that a celebrity movie critique recently passed. I had known that he was in the program, but did not follow his sobriety. Also, recently a very established local member passed away that is affecting the community a lot. Within about a 30 mile radius I can not go to different meetings without someone talking or sharing about their experiences with the alcoholic that recently passed. I had interacted with him a little, but did not have an established relationship with this man. I was able to take away some words of wisdom that he used to share....

"If your tired of gettin what your gettin, stop doin what your doin!" -RR