Step 4 again

I continue on my journey of sobriety without the obsession to drink. I have spoken with my sponsor and he has indicated that I need to start my fourth step again. I looked over my old fourth step. It was laid out similar but by no means how I plan to go about this fourth step. My last step experience was in a group setting and although I was comfortable enough to share with others in this type of milieu I do not plan on replicating this in favor of a one to one discussion.

Things continue to go my way as I continue to give everything over to my Higher Power. I can’t explain this only that it is working in my favor and every roadblock is met with positive outcomes. I believe if I was drinking that this may not be the case.

My experience strength and hope continue to guide me as I share and listen with open ears at every meeting. There are no marginal efforts that come out of me. I am all in. 

ESH

Things continue to get better for me the more sobriety I achieve. Through the Grace of God I continue to work, have a family and breathe. I do not have any inclining to drink as the obsession to drink has been lifted from me by my Higher Power. My sponsor and other ex-problem drinkers continue to provide support and encouragement which helps me through my days. I work very long days and as I continue to share at meetings, “working all day is sometimes like eating my vegetables and coming to meetings is like having desert”.

Or sometimes I share that “at first I had fun with alcohol and it was great, but then it got shitty. I came into the program a few years ago and at first it continued to be shitty. But when I got the message it got fun and great.” I don’t always share my experience, strength and hope at every meeting, but I do share. I am trying to listen and hear in addition to sharing. I want what the old timers have and am willing to do anything to get it.